I don't want to love Ash. I want to love someone. I don't love anyone. I have no one. I could have Ash, eventually. Ash, currently, is the only one who's even entertaining notions of me that I know about. And no one else is offering.
What we want. What we'll settle for. When it's a mistake, and everyone knows it's a mistake, but everyone also knows it's the only thing in front of you for the other option is nothing.
Is wavering allowed? Is debate allowed?
Is something asking me if I want something less than love? Am I sending out into the universe a big reply of "Maybe" by even considering this choice?
Great, this is my life as an early '90s romantic comedy starring Marisa Tomei.
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